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Hello everyone and a Happy Belated Thanksgiving to my friends here in the US who celebrate the holiday. I hope everyone had a wonderful time either by yourself or with friends and family. My Thanksgiving was nice; could have done with not having to clean my mom's or cook Thanksgiving dinner before my step-grandparents got here but it wasn't a bad day. My step-father was supposed to clean for my mom before he left to get his dad and step-mother but he just piled it up on the side of the living room and the dining room and said it was done. He was also going to put the turkey in before he left because he "wanted to do something special to it" but he forgot so I did that. Well, when he got home, he was going to to dinner since we never let him cook but he sat down and went "I'll get it in a few minutes". Well, it was 3 at that point and the rest of dinner was going to take an hour and a half to two hours and he had to drive them back down to Philly from Harrisburg so I went to the fridge in the garage and got everything. I'm in the kitchen ten minutes later after getting everything in the oven and was getting ready to set the dining room table when he goes "I was going to get it in another twenty minutes or so." Well, by the time he got around to it, we wouldn't be eating until 6 or 7. But it's cool; it was a nice evening.

Last night at about 9:30, Steve and I ran to Toys R Us up here to see if they had the Pro Guitar for Rock Band 3. Well, we got over to the one closet to mom's house in Harrisburg and left; the number of cars and the lines of people was insane. So we went to the other one about seven miles away and could see the line a bit better - this was wrapped around the building and then some. We said forget it. We have the guitar pre-ordered at the GameStop near my apartment but they keep pushing the release date back and we know some places have them. Mom and I were watching the news at 11 and they showed the second Toys R Us and said that the line had thousands of people in it; they let 500 in at 10 and the lines was stilled wrapped around the building and up to the mall. Then they said the Harrisburg Toys R Us (the first one we went too) was even worse then that one. So even if we had gotten into the line and gotten in, we wouldn't have gotten into it. One of the woman that I work with said the one down in Montgomeryville near my apartment was as bad and I was reading the FB of someone from high school and it was as bad as the one near my apartment in Horsham. When I have kids; I don't care about the huge sales; I will start shopping early in the season and put it away so that come Black Friday; I could spend the day with my kids and not try and fight the insane crowds. I do not see what the allure is to doing the shopping on this day.

Moving into the apartment is done for now. I cannot afford to buy bookshelves or a couch so that will have to wait until some time next year and I've unpacked what I can without having bookshelves. I've also settled in nicely. It's quiet most of the time except for the people upstairs but there's nothing I can do about that and I can live with it. My brother is staying there a lot with school and work so I have some company. The next couple of weeks, things will be extremely tight so we'll be having spaghetti a lot but that's alright. Haven't been going out much; though I really don't have a lot of friends anymore so that's not a problem. With school I keep pretty busy plus work and Steve has Rock Band 3 so we've been playing that a few times a week. And we've been watching Doctor Who through Netflix and his PS3 so it's really not that bad. I'm getting into a schedule and now that I've gotten settled, won't have to run around so much so I can also work on some webpages to build some skills up.

Now that my schedule is evening out, I'm also going to make an effort to be on the journal a bit more and to get to know people. It's like I fell off the face of the Earth but I've just been so busy and the depression was back for awhile but it's all evening out now.

Okay - and I said I wasn't going out today but my mom needs to run to CVS and I don't want her driving with all the idiots who are out there driving today.
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Well, today I went grocery shopping. $150 later and I have food for this week as well as staples to help me create meals later. It is very expensive moving out on your own for the first time. I'm guessing that when you've been out on your own you have things that I had to go out and buy; like small kitchen appliances and dishes, the basic cooking supplies like spices and silverware. But I've had to go out and buy all that. Now, I'm thinking since I have the staples for cooking I won't have to spend as much at the grocery store.

Right now I should be working on homework but I'm working on doing my paid to click sites to see if I can earn enough credits to get some free advertising. If I can get the free advertising, then I can start putting out there the link for my paid e-mail companies that I earn money with. It really is work to earn just a little extra but hey, living on my own, I think every little penny will help.
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Well, I created this blog months ago but have never really used it. I'm thinking that it's time to write in a blog daily or as close to daily as I can so I'm going to give this another try. I don't know; it's not like I live that interesting of a life or anything so this might be boring; but we shall see. I have my livejournal yes and some friends over there so I'll try to keep writing there too but I'm hoping to meet some new friends here and find a sense of community.
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Well, we got a lot of stuff out of my room this afternoon. I do have to go through a lot more but it's amazing how much we got out and how much room there now is. Basically I have a corner which is actually a lot of my step-father's stuff and then the right side of my bed which I think is actually clothes, yarn and books. I'm a clothes whore and I'm not afraid to admit it. That will probably be what I do in the morning; go through clothes and see what I want to keep and what I don't want to keep. With the cramps and such that I'm having, it'll be nice, easy work that won't kill me. And then I'll have the back room to contend with. That room I can do even if it is hot out as the air conditioner really works well. The one in my bedroom does not work well at all. It hasn't for about three years but it's okay to sleep by with a fan. This weekend was perfect for the front room because it was cool today and tomorrow is going to be even cooler. I know, I should have done it in the winter but then I'm contending with the cold as the heat doesn't always warm the room that well. The trials of living in a house that's over 100 years old and needs a lot of work.

Anyways, aside from that, what have I been up to? Well, I did mention that I've been getting to know this guy. He messaged me on match.com about...two months ago I'd say and I did write back. We talked twice on match.com, then a few times in e-mail and we talk a lot of facebook. We also just started talking through text messaging. He respects the fact that I'm ... not terrified ... but dislike greatly talking on the phone and isn't pressuring me to do so. He's fine with text messaging. Basically we've agreed that the best thing is for us to be friends because I'm moving to Harrisburg, he lives in Philadelphia and doesn't drive but it's nice getting to know him. As of right now, we have no plans to meet in person but just to get to know each other through talking...well writing. This morning he was really sweet and just messaged me good morning and that he hoped I would have a good day. Okay, so we started text messaging yesterday when I decided at lunch to message him hi as I sat by the lake. But it was nice. Let's see, he's 31, is interested in music, used to play WoW, enjoys reading, watches a lot of crime drama and also enjoys British Comedy. He's easy to talk to though we are writing and through e-mail, I can even talk to the crush - which I'll get to next. Anyways, his name is Joe and I've just been enjoying talking to him. He also told me he likes me with red hair (he was looking at my facebook pictures) and that he'd like to see me with blond hair. Oh, and he knows I have depression issues and that I see a therapist and isn't freaked out by it. Tomorrow morning I'll write him another e-mail. I'd do it tonight but I usually wind up taking about an hour to write an e-mail back to him and I have alloted myself the last hour before bed to knitting since I found an easy scarf to knit.

Next thing that has been going on is I've sorta been talking to the crush more. Not in person but one day last week he closed one of my tickets and like I always do, I sent him a quick e-mail thanking him (because it's only polite to thank someone after they've fixed something for you even if they do work on the help desk) and asked how he was. I hadn't heard from him in a few weeks and I figured like normal I'd get a yw with a smiley face and that would be it. But it wasn't. He actually answered me back with how he was and then asked how I was. So we went back and forth a little that day (he was telling me about his new puppy). The next day I was walking back to the DE suite for a meeting, didn't see him and was somewhat surprised when I heard hi Jenn and looked up to see him hooking up a computer. I got to say hi, asked how he was and then had to run to the meeting that I was already late too. Part of me says I should have said fuck the meeting and stayed to talk to him but I didn't. The day after that, followed the same as the first; I thanked him for closing a ticket, asked how he was and he answered back. That day we talked about how he was frustrated with something. Friday of the week saw the same and we talked about how he needed a vacation and how long it's been since he's been on a vacation. Oh yeah, and since we've been e-mailing, his name moved up in my Outlook list and I accidentally sent him an e-mail that was for someone else so he now knows that my one nickname is Chloe (thanks Kim!). Didn't really talk to him this week; not because I didn't want to but he didn't answer the e-mail I sent on Wednesday asking how he was and if his dog had a name yet. He did answer one that afternoon that got sent to him accidentally and he did say he was going to watch the Flyers that night. Did talk to him briefly on the phone yesterday but there was someone else on the phone plus...again...I don't talk on the phone. LOL. Anyways, we talked briefly through e-mail too yesterday; it was really nothing; just asked how he was (and he asked how I was) and then I asked what he was doing for the weekend (he told me he was going to West Chester to watch the UFC fight) and I apologized for kind of snapping at him on the phone since he was calling to fix one thing and I was having a mini crisis in that our main data entry program had just crashed and no one was able to work (he fixed it really quick) but apparently he didn't see me as snapping when we were on the phone. So I'm confused on him; does he know I exist or doesn't he, does he see me as someone who could be a friend or doesn't he, does he see me as someone who could be more then a friend or doesn't he?

Yeah, so now I have two guys that I like; though I like them differently. Joe I see as someone who has the potential of being a really good friend. He's easy to talk to and I don't know if either of us see it as going any further then that. The crush on the other hand, I think could be more then a friend but I have no clue where he stands or what he thinks.

At the same time, my heart was broken a little this past week when I found out that Tony Stewart is dating a skinny little blond.

The yarn that I ordered from yarn.com the other day arrived this morning so I was able to start knitting the scarf that I wanted to. It's a beginner scarf that I found in one of my knitting magazines. It's not a long one; about 23" long total; but with that said, it shouldn't take me three years to knit. Since the entire pattern is the knit stitch, I did order more expensive yarn since usually I buy the cheap stuff from Michael's or A.C. Moore. I'm not too worried about screwing this up. I will just take my time and work slowly on it. This is what I'm attempting to make. It's in the Knit Scene Easy magazine. All the projects in the magazine are suppose to be easy to make. Here are all the projects in the magazine. I am slowly going to work my way through them. I really think they'll help me learn to knit better.

School starts on Friday (the 12th). I am now taking a science class and the software applications class since I wasn't allowed to take web design and software applications at the same time. The science class I'm worrying about since science has never been my strong point. Anyone good at science? Because I might have questions that I need help with trying to understand what they're asking. I also have to e-mail my adviser because they've taken all my electives by filling in classes from my paralegal agree; great except some of them are not the best grades but rather the ones that I was in when my mom was in the hospital and they thought she could possibly die. Wasn't my best at the time and school really wasn't my concern.

Okay, I think I'm going to go. I do want to write that e-mail to my adviser before I forget. Hope everyone is doing well!
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I am a bad, bad person. I haven't disappeared, life just has gotten very busy plus I have a lot going on in my head right now that I've been trying to deal with on my own like a big girl. Between working, trying to pack my room, classes starting next Friday, and getting to know this really nice guy through e-mail and text messaging (and no, it's not the guy I've been crushing on for a year), I haven't had any free time. Plus, since I'm going to probably focus in web design in school, I've been trying to brush up on my web site skills. Anyways, after this weekend (the step-father and I are tackling my bedrooms), I should have some more free time and can get to know my new friends here.

But I am interested in how everyone is. So...how is everyone?
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I have issues. Probably some serious issues. I want to take strawberries, dump them on someone and lick them off. I literally want to grab someone (not a random person; I do have someone in mind though they probably have no clue), pour strawberries on them and lick the strawberries off. Well, actually, I'd have to get their shirt off and then I can pour the strawberries on them. But still, I have had serious thoughts about doing this. Just tonight but there are serious thoughts involved. It randomly popped into my head as I was in the grocery store and saw the shelf of strawberries. Like...yum...licking them off of said person would be fun. I almost smacked myself in the middle of the produce section. And then as I was accidentally eating the pint of Strawberry Cheesecake Ice Cream, I started thinking about slowly pouring that on someone and licking that off. Would someone please take my mind? Preferably before I go to bed tonight because otherwise my dreams are going to be...well, they aren't going to be PG tonight.

And yes, I accidentally ate the pint of ice cream. The other night my iPod randomly played "accidentally in love" which got me thinking - how can you accidentally be in love? I mean seriously. Do you have a crush on someone and like a month later you suddenly go "hmmm, I don't think I'm crushing on you, I think I accidentally fell in love with you. I don't know anything about your or anything. We only talk randomly but I'm so in love with you. I will bear your children and do whatever you ask of me." So if you can accidentally be in love, then I can accidentally eat an entire pint of ice cream.

And I'm back to the licking of strawberries again. *shakes head* I need other images in my head.
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1. What's your favorite flavor?

Well, I love peanut butter and vanilla...and lately, I've had a thing for strawberries.

2. What's your favorite type of music?

I like pretty much everything aside from techno, heavy metal and hard-core rap.

3. What's your favorite type of clothing? (i.e. pants, t-shirts, skirts, blouses.)

I love soft cotton t-shirts.

4. If you could live in one country for a year, where would you live?

Umm...let me think...ENGLAND!!!!!

5. What's your favorite hobby?

Reading. It opens up an entirely new world.

Leave a comment if you'd like your own questions. :)
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Okay - since it's now official, I can say that while I did drop out of law school during the beginning of this month, I begin by next Bachelor's Degree on May 12th. Yup, I am back at Kaplan working on a Bachelor's in Information Studies. I did manage to register for the Introduction to Website Development (7 PM on Sunday nights) but I cannot get into the Introduction to Information Studies class. I will have to check tomorrow night and then if it's not up, I will e-mail the adviser listed on my school homepage. Can you tell I'm excited? Received the e-mail ten minutes ago that I was activated as a student again and I'm already registering for classes. :)
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Work was just...long. I have a headache and I think it's all tension. And I did a stupid. I knew Steve had class tonight but I put the ground beef for dinner into the freezer last night. So I wound up ordering Chili's for dinner because he didn't want Italian or WaWa. It took me no time tonight to get from work to Chili's so I had a few minutes to kill. Went into BN to just look around but wound up buying a book because mom told me too. She also told me to come home, eat my dinner and play TheSims3 for the rest of the night. I might take her up on that.

Off topic - has anyone noticed that Hair Cuttery keeps raising their prices on the commercial but say "Still Only"? Last year it said "Still only $13" now it says "Still only $15". LOL.

Anyways, as I was picking up dinner in Chili's, there were these two guys at the bar drinking beer. I gave my name and as I was waiting, the one guys goes "so do you go by Jennifer, Jenn, Jennie, Jenna, John" and then gulps half his beer. Before I could say anything, the one sitting next to him looks at my chest, smiles with beer dribbling down his chin and says hi. Okay, I know I'm looking for a boyfriend but I would seriously rather be single for the rest of my life then go out with a guy who is introducing themselves by staring at my chest and has beer dribbling down his chin. Thank goodness the bar tender brought my food out then. And the guy who did the name thing...looks at the bar tender and goes "So do you go by Jennifer, Jenn, Jennie,. Jenna, John..." (her name was Kari) to which she went "my name was John but I changed it to Kari when I had the sex change". Seriously - that was great. I wish I had thought of that. LOL.

Alright, I think I'm going to get off the net for a bit and either a) knit, b) work on pen pal letters, c) read fanfiction or d) play TheSims3.
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There are so many things that I need to do but I'm not doing them. Am I being lazy? Somewhat. I'm exhausted. The 46 hours of work this week has been a killer; especially since most of that was spent typing in some way or another. What I am suppose to be doing is bringing every out of my two bedrooms and going through it but I talked with my step-father last night and he agreed that on Tuesday or Wednesday he'll clean out the stuff he has in the dining room and then start bringing down the containers and piles from the rooms and then I can go through them where I actually have room. And so they told me to rest today since I'll probably have another week of overtime.

So what have I done today? Well, I wound up sleeping late since the one cat kept me up most of the night fighting for bed space. Finally got out of bed at 11 and got a shower. A few years ago I had tried the Schick Intuition shower razor and didn't like how it did my legs but yesterday when I was at Giant, they had the Schick Intuition Plus on sale plus I had a $1 off coupon for anything in Health and Beauty so I decided to try it again. This time, it didn't suck. And in the long run, it's cheaper then the Nair Shower stuff that I've been using. That is a definite plus.

After my shower I ordered some boneless wings from Chili's. They said ten to twenty minutes and so I used that time to hit Barnes and Nobles next door to Chili's for my British Genealogy magazines. And guess what - the new Top Gear magazine was also in and it has a bright green Porsche on the front. While I was there, I found they had a new Knit Simple magazine and two history magazines that looked interesting. And I was bad, I hit the Star Bucks in the back of Barnes and Nobles and got a Venti Light Caffe Vanilla. I know, seriously bad but I was craving caffeine. Picked up dinner and I've been sitting here on the couch relaxing and watching family movies free onDemand. First was Cheaper by the Dozen 2 which was really good. Now I just started First Daughter. I don't know how it is going to be but you know what, I don't care. It makes me happy. :)

Mom is staying up at the house in Harrisburg for the week but Steve is on his way down. We didn't get him a birthday present and we know he wanted the Google Nexus phone but we can't get it on a family plan. Not through T-Mobile because the guy mom talked to on the phone tried to help her but said Google is controlling it all. He did help her get in touch with Google who suggested we buy out his part of my family plan and then buy the phone through them on his own plan; or we can spend $530 and buy just the phone and put it on the family plan ourselves. The woman at Google told mom if we're not willing to spend the money with them, then we should look at the new HTC phone but the Google phone out performs the HTC phones. I'm going to take him up to look at it. And I beg to differ with the woman's comment. Steve already has a Google phone and I have the HTC touch pro 2 and my phone is way better then his. So we'll see if he likes the phone but I'm thinking not.

I am thinking of playing The Sims 3 for a bit; or WoW since I haven't played that in a long time either. Of course, I should also work on pen pal letters. What should I do?

Changes

Apr. 24th, 2010 04:08 pm
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The past few weeks, all I've been thinking about is how so many people think my life is bad. And for the life of me, I cannot figure out how my life is bad. Because it's not. If it was random people, I probably wouldn't care so much but my own father thinks there is something wrong with my life. But after much soul searching and a few conversations with my therapist, I've come to realize that my life is not bad. It just isn't what everyone expects it to be.

The biggest thing that everyone; including my father; seems to harp on is the fact that at twenty-seven (almost twenty-eight), I still live at home with my mother, my step-father and my younger brother. Do I want to be here? Part of me says yes, it's nice to have people around in the house and part of me says no, maybe people would want to be my friend if I lived on my own. Sure, I could find roommates but I'm not one to live with random people and I do have a serious shortage of friends right now so the only option I have is to find a place on my own.

I've priced it out and looked at different options and have come to a conclusion. Could I afford to live on my own? Yes. Would I still be able to live like I'm accustom to? For the most part. Would things get tight? More then likely; especially if I have to start re-paying my student loans anytime soon or I have to pay more out of pocket for this next degree I'm working on. At this point, I really do not think it would be wise on my part to move out. Sure, everyone is saying the economy is turning up but the problems are still not over. And my work; while we're getting busy again; could always have more layoffs. If by some awful chance I was to get laid off, I wouldn't be able to afford to live on my own. Besides, in really thinking about it, before I move out, I want to get a new car. Well, actually, before I move out, I'd like to get married but that isn't happening any time soon.

And that is the other thing that everyone is constantly harping at me about. My singleness and the fact that I really haven't dated since high school. Truth be told, I'm not a casual person. Well, except for clothes. Random dating is not my thing. The major part of being single that bothers me is I do want to get married and I do want to have kids. And I know that to meet someone, I am going to have to go on dates - but I'm not up for the "let's go to the bar and meet a guy there" that my other single girl friend has been suggesting. I know what I want in a guy and I know there are guys out there that meet what I'm looking for. And yes, one day I will meet them. For the most part, being single doesn't bother me but when everyone gets on me about it, my OCD kicks in and it's the only thing I can think of. Besides, the few guys I have gone on dates with over the past nine years have said after one date that I'm the type of girl a guy marries and they just aren't looking for that yet. Which is a) a bunch of bull because they're just not interested but they're trying to spare my feelings or b) the truth in which I'm basically screwed.

Blah - there are other things that people get on my case about but it all pretty much ties up into the fact that I'm twenty-seven, single and living at home. So I figured it's time to make some changes. While change does tend to scare me, I also tend to jump into it head first and make too many changes at once. I need to stop and start making small changes. Yes, there is a big change going on in that my family has just up and decided to move to Harrisburg. Sure it's the state capital but let me tell you, there is a big difference from living in the suburbs of Philadelphia to living in Harrisburg. I'm not even in the city and there are more people living in my area then live in Harrisburg. Thought this would be cool but I'm beginning to think it's seriously not. We will see but if I have trouble finding friends in Philadelphia, how the hell am I going to find friends in Harrisburg? And now mom has sprung on me that she thinks we'll probably be moving back to the suburbs of Philadelphia in a year or two. So why the hell are we moving then? At this point, I'm not going to quit my job and find something out there if we're probably going to be back here in a year or two.

So what am I changing? Well, I did try to dye my hair blond. Didn't work as the blond just pulled all my natural red highlights and I'm now pretty much a dark strawberry blond. But I have started wearing make-up (I feel so fake with make-up on) and now that I've lost a little weight (I think if I could actually get the flubber of my stomach and gut to tone, it'd actually feel like I've lost weight) and can buy XXL shirts from Old Navy, I'm updating my wardrobe some. I am also focusing on a more positive outlook on life and keep thinking positively about what I want in life. So far while nothing has changed, I am more happy. Happy is good. I am also branching out in the online world and created a journal at dreamwidth. It's time to make some new friends and to continue to grow as a person.

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