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Work was just...long. I have a headache and I think it's all tension. And I did a stupid. I knew Steve had class tonight but I put the ground beef for dinner into the freezer last night. So I wound up ordering Chili's for dinner because he didn't want Italian or WaWa. It took me no time tonight to get from work to Chili's so I had a few minutes to kill. Went into BN to just look around but wound up buying a book because mom told me too. She also told me to come home, eat my dinner and play TheSims3 for the rest of the night. I might take her up on that.

Off topic - has anyone noticed that Hair Cuttery keeps raising their prices on the commercial but say "Still Only"? Last year it said "Still only $13" now it says "Still only $15". LOL.

Anyways, as I was picking up dinner in Chili's, there were these two guys at the bar drinking beer. I gave my name and as I was waiting, the one guys goes "so do you go by Jennifer, Jenn, Jennie, Jenna, John" and then gulps half his beer. Before I could say anything, the one sitting next to him looks at my chest, smiles with beer dribbling down his chin and says hi. Okay, I know I'm looking for a boyfriend but I would seriously rather be single for the rest of my life then go out with a guy who is introducing themselves by staring at my chest and has beer dribbling down his chin. Thank goodness the bar tender brought my food out then. And the guy who did the name thing...looks at the bar tender and goes "So do you go by Jennifer, Jenn, Jennie,. Jenna, John..." (her name was Kari) to which she went "my name was John but I changed it to Kari when I had the sex change". Seriously - that was great. I wish I had thought of that. LOL.

Alright, I think I'm going to get off the net for a bit and either a) knit, b) work on pen pal letters, c) read fanfiction or d) play TheSims3.


Apr. 24th, 2010 04:08 pm
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The past few weeks, all I've been thinking about is how so many people think my life is bad. And for the life of me, I cannot figure out how my life is bad. Because it's not. If it was random people, I probably wouldn't care so much but my own father thinks there is something wrong with my life. But after much soul searching and a few conversations with my therapist, I've come to realize that my life is not bad. It just isn't what everyone expects it to be.

The biggest thing that everyone; including my father; seems to harp on is the fact that at twenty-seven (almost twenty-eight), I still live at home with my mother, my step-father and my younger brother. Do I want to be here? Part of me says yes, it's nice to have people around in the house and part of me says no, maybe people would want to be my friend if I lived on my own. Sure, I could find roommates but I'm not one to live with random people and I do have a serious shortage of friends right now so the only option I have is to find a place on my own.

I've priced it out and looked at different options and have come to a conclusion. Could I afford to live on my own? Yes. Would I still be able to live like I'm accustom to? For the most part. Would things get tight? More then likely; especially if I have to start re-paying my student loans anytime soon or I have to pay more out of pocket for this next degree I'm working on. At this point, I really do not think it would be wise on my part to move out. Sure, everyone is saying the economy is turning up but the problems are still not over. And my work; while we're getting busy again; could always have more layoffs. If by some awful chance I was to get laid off, I wouldn't be able to afford to live on my own. Besides, in really thinking about it, before I move out, I want to get a new car. Well, actually, before I move out, I'd like to get married but that isn't happening any time soon.

And that is the other thing that everyone is constantly harping at me about. My singleness and the fact that I really haven't dated since high school. Truth be told, I'm not a casual person. Well, except for clothes. Random dating is not my thing. The major part of being single that bothers me is I do want to get married and I do want to have kids. And I know that to meet someone, I am going to have to go on dates - but I'm not up for the "let's go to the bar and meet a guy there" that my other single girl friend has been suggesting. I know what I want in a guy and I know there are guys out there that meet what I'm looking for. And yes, one day I will meet them. For the most part, being single doesn't bother me but when everyone gets on me about it, my OCD kicks in and it's the only thing I can think of. Besides, the few guys I have gone on dates with over the past nine years have said after one date that I'm the type of girl a guy marries and they just aren't looking for that yet. Which is a) a bunch of bull because they're just not interested but they're trying to spare my feelings or b) the truth in which I'm basically screwed.

Blah - there are other things that people get on my case about but it all pretty much ties up into the fact that I'm twenty-seven, single and living at home. So I figured it's time to make some changes. While change does tend to scare me, I also tend to jump into it head first and make too many changes at once. I need to stop and start making small changes. Yes, there is a big change going on in that my family has just up and decided to move to Harrisburg. Sure it's the state capital but let me tell you, there is a big difference from living in the suburbs of Philadelphia to living in Harrisburg. I'm not even in the city and there are more people living in my area then live in Harrisburg. Thought this would be cool but I'm beginning to think it's seriously not. We will see but if I have trouble finding friends in Philadelphia, how the hell am I going to find friends in Harrisburg? And now mom has sprung on me that she thinks we'll probably be moving back to the suburbs of Philadelphia in a year or two. So why the hell are we moving then? At this point, I'm not going to quit my job and find something out there if we're probably going to be back here in a year or two.

So what am I changing? Well, I did try to dye my hair blond. Didn't work as the blond just pulled all my natural red highlights and I'm now pretty much a dark strawberry blond. But I have started wearing make-up (I feel so fake with make-up on) and now that I've lost a little weight (I think if I could actually get the flubber of my stomach and gut to tone, it'd actually feel like I've lost weight) and can buy XXL shirts from Old Navy, I'm updating my wardrobe some. I am also focusing on a more positive outlook on life and keep thinking positively about what I want in life. So far while nothing has changed, I am more happy. Happy is good. I am also branching out in the online world and created a journal at dreamwidth. It's time to make some new friends and to continue to grow as a person.


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